I'm having a really bad day

[Donna]

I didn't sleep at all last night and cried the whole night. Just need someone to talk to!!!!!!!!

[withavengeance]

My prayers go out to you Donna. Not all of our emotions are due to bipolar; many of them are REAL and normal. Your emotions sound situational (my therapist's term) and quite valid. So. I am hereby validating your emotions in this. ;)

I always am asking myself regarding my own emotions (taken from an old commercial): Is it real? Or is it bipolar?

[Annie Jones-Pehleman]

I know how you feel. I just opened this for the first time and want to cry because I didn't know you guys were here.

I went out last night with my youngest daughter who hated me for years. I don't know what changed, but she and I are trying again.

I've been disowned by every single member
of my family, and my ex-family at least once. The ones who matter most are the ones who come back. At times it's taken over a decade. But, for me, the ones who come through the fire with me are the ones I want to be with. An old friend said he didn't "buy" the bi-polar bit and said I should deal with life on life's terms and not rely on meds. Had in fact told his own son to throw away his meds. I cried over the loss of THAT friendship until I realized that friends like that are toxic.

Hang in there, Donna. I am praying for you.

[withavengeance]

We're here for you too, Annie! We're here for each other because we've gone thru the fire together, in a way. I've rid myself of many toxic 'friendships', 'relationships', whatever and am much healthier for it.

The worst toxic relationship I rid myself of was my only sibling. She too is bipolar (undiagnosed, untreated) and has triple the times of wreckage in her past than I do. Now she's a prescription med junkie and crack addict, on her fifth marriage & five years younger than me. At one point, I had a restraining order against her and her husband. Unlisted my phone number.

Now she lives 500 miles away and even that isn't far enough. Sad, huh?

[Donna]

Thank you so much for sharing your story, it gives me hope!!!

[Donna]

Thank you for sharing your story and I am glad you and your daughter are trying again.