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Do you ever get the feeling that you haven't found what you are looking for?
yeah I have thought about volunteering. I have found a place that I have taken up items for and may get involved in the spring with the garden they plant for the less fortunate. The girl scouts and b…
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Do you ever get the feeling that you haven't found what you are looking for?
Hey the book about her son is a really hard read for me. I wouldnt suggest it if your at a low point right now. It is interesting though to here a mother's struggle and knows something is wrong with…
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Fired my pdoc
I had to go to an office in which I had a long waiting time before I could get worked in. It was during my worst point so far but I did make i. I have private insurance and work 40 hours a week but y…
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yeah I have thought about volunteering. I have found a place that I have taken up items for and may get involved in the spring with the garden they plant for the less fortunate. The girl scouts and boy scouts are great groups to work with but I real…
Hey the book about her son is a really hard read for me. I wouldnt suggest it if your at a low point right now. It is interesting though to here a mother's struggle and knows something is wrong with her son and the little quirks that she sees in him…
I am bipolar. It is what it is to me and the doc says to me you have bipolar disorder. But I still say I am bipolar D@*** it.
I had to go to an office in which I had a long waiting time before I could get worked in. It was during my worst point so far but I did make i. I have private insurance and work 40 hours a week but yet find it difficult to pay copays. It is sad that…
I feel as though I should be doing a different job. I feel like someone somewhere needs me (do I just need to feel needed?). For other reasons I want another job but at this point I do not know what I can or cant do any more. i am thinking about get…
"To Live in the Hearts we Leave Behind
Is not to Die" author unknown
I believe in God but have been wondering what all the different denominations beliefs are. Does anyone know of a simple to read book that explains the different beliefs of the denominations? It is confusing to hear that one group believes this and o…
"All you ever have is now, the one thing that is permanent in your life" Eckart Tolle
"If you don't stand for something, you'll fall for anything" Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, etc...it's has a few attached to it
"I'm a slow walker, but I never walk back" Abraham Lincoln
I have not received anything like that.
Give me one friend, just one, who meets the needs of my varying moods.
Easter M. Clark
that reminded me of this:
Yes I still have break through episodes of both depression and mania but they do not last as long. They are not extremely low nor extremely high as with out meds. My doctor thinks that I will always have them (does not mean that you will be that way…
I've never really thought of my bipolar as a gift, it took me a long time to accept that mental illness is an illness like any other you can get. I, too, wish I could educate kids, or write a book, to try to find a reason for my bp. I look at my lif…
Comment Wall (9 comments)
- At 9:50pm on October 14, 2009,
Renee said… - Only one psychiatrist in this town and you have to be suicidal or homicidal to see him but thanks for the response. Maybe I will call his office.
- At 4:22pm on October 14, 2009,
Bob's My Uncle said… - When I have a moment. Tonight maybe.
- At 7:12pm on October 13, 2009,
Andrew said… - Thank you Judy!
- At 11:21am on October 11, 2009,
withavengeance said… - YOU. ARE. NOT. A. BUTT!!!!!! You ARE my friend :D
- At 7:06am on October 11, 2009,
withavengeance said…
- Y'know, Judy, I'm not even sure what 'normal' vs. 'hypomanic' for me is anymore. Like that old t.v. commercial "Is it real? Or is it Memorex', lolol. But from what I've learned so far, I do believe I'm hypomanic right now, but I'm not off the Richter scale....yet. Like you said, I gotta harness it. Sounds like you've read the book (I'm going to paraphrase here) Harnessing Your Bipolar Highs (or something like that). I have that book out of the library, but have yet to read it (renewed once already, lol, lucky bipolar isn't that popular of a topic to read, hehe).
I'm going thru major stress (most of it adversity) and that's when the hypomanic always, always appears.
As far as what you said about yourself, there is a bipolar condition known as bipolar, mixed states. Maybe you're one of those patients? Depressed and manic at the same time. OR bipolar, rapid or ultra rapid cycling. Do you know about these? If not, maybe either Google it or check around bphope.
Anyway, thanks for your comment (something to continue to think on). Bipolars DO have 'normal' periods, from what I've read. Your comment is a timely reminder for me.
God bless...
- At 10:21am on October 10, 2009,
withavengeance said…
- P.S. 60-70% of bipolar patients abuse alcohol and/or drugs. I've met several in AA. I'm also signed up on the dual diagnosis forum, because that's what I am. Bipolar also explains for some anorexia/bulimia, self-injury and more. All symptoms of the underlying bipolar condition. Savvy docs are now able to diagnose bipolar in children as young as 6! But most of us are diagnosed in our teens, twenties, thirties.
A good, humorous at times and outragious book to read, written by a bipolar, type I, is 'Electroboy' by Andy Behrman. Also 'Puppy Chow is Better than Prozac', written by 'somebody' Smith. You can probably find these books at your local library.
See, I know I'm hypomanic now due to my ability to write. When depressed, I can't write at all and I isolate badly.
- At 10:14am on October 10, 2009,
withavengeance said…
- Ah, Winston-Salem! As you can probably tell by that, I LOVE NC! I live about 45 mins. northwest of Baltimore, Maryland, near the Mason Dixon line (but still south, thank God, hehe).
I was just diagnosed last March, after over 20 years of being misdiagnosed as having unipolar depression. I am 56 years young. Though I rejected the diagnosis at first (which, by the way, was made by my therapist, NOT the pdoc whose job it really was...I've since fired him and hired a new one), I now accept it and am learning to harness the hypomanic episodes for my benefit (this CAN be done). I'm living proof. You can do it, too. There's a book on how to do it, but this bipolar brain of mine cannot for the life of me remember the name, lolol. I've done so much reading and research on bipolar of all types that I feel I'm an unofficial 'expert'.
While in a hypomanic episode, I'm also learning to control the impulsiveness (and here I always thought I was simply an impulsive person and that it was part of my character make-up....NOT). I take my meds religiously and thank God they finally got them right, at least for now. As you age and your body chemistry changes, meds need to be adjusted. It pays to be very aware of impending mood changes and to seek help promptly. It is imperative to have a support system you can count on to also recognize your moods or, failing that, keeping a daily mood chart. I only have four people, but that's enough. And one dear friend is bipolar I, diagnosed at age 50. She's an immense help to me and has been my rock. The others include my therapist, my best friend of 40-some-odd years (though she's an alcoholic and I'm an alcoholic in recovery forever and only one drink away from a drunk, and we've not been able to be close for some time due to that), and my soon-to-be ex-boyfriend. But he and I remain friends nonetheless. We love one another, but can no longer live together.
The depression part is another bird entirely. While in a depression (and I've been seriously there many times), we become immobilized. So when I'm slightly manic, I get tons of stuff done as I know the depression will occur sooner or later and I will accomplish exactly nothing at all. My latest depression (and it was very black indeed) lasted one full year, the longest and deepest ever.
Stay on the meds, Judi!!!!!
And keep the faith. Bipolar can be successfully managed, like any chronic condition. It's amazes me how genetic this is. My mom, who was killed at age 33 due to risky behaviors, had bipolar, only back then there was no name or treatment for it. I now recognize her behavior as bipolar, but undiagnosed. Her grandmother was committed to an institution at 56 (my age, wow) and died there at age 56. Suicide? Or something else? Guess I'll never know. At that point, I stopped my family research...I'd learned enough. I feel fortunate to have what the mental health professionals call soft bipolar, which is bipolar, type II. I have no living blood children, so the disease will die with me. And that makes me very happy.
This disease has played hell with my life in the past. I recognize that now. Bipolar explains EVERYthing.
Welcome to the community of bipolar nutz, Judi, and.....
Keep the faith,
Pam
P.S. Another part of my support system....bphope :D
- At 12:29am on October 10, 2009,
withavengeance said…
- Excess anger is common in bp. If you can learn to harness it, it can be a GOOD thing. That's what I'm trying to do right now so I don't launch missiles at innocents, hehe!
- At 12:27am on October 10, 2009,
withavengeance said…
- Mocksville??? What a name, lolol. Where is it near in NC? Just curious is all.
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